I'm been struggling lately. Lately being for many years. I've always had a hard time choosing what I want to pursue in life as far as a job goes. It's so important to me to love what I do and really have a passion for it. I don't want to dread going to work everyday.
I want to make a difference. I want to be creative. I want to help people.
This probably explains why I change career paths yearly. But the thing is, I never fully take the leap. I start each career idea, but I hardly ever follow through. For wedding planning I got my mass communications degree and did an events internship. For personal training I got my certification and started a business but haven't done much with it. For teaching, I'm in school now but having second thoughts regarding what to do when I finish the program in April.
I'm afraid of doing the same thing my whole life. I'm afraid of being stuck in a job that makes me miserable. So every time I get excited about something I dive in, then jump back out before I get in too deep.
With personal training I'm afraid of the science of things. I'm not the best at science and I'm always terrified that I'll give a client the incorrect information. But I'm passionate about being fit, and I love working out.
With teaching I'm afraid that I'll run myself into the ground and be too exhausted to have a life outside of school. I don't see myself as the typical 8-5 worker.
A lot of people keep telling me that I'm gonna wanna go back into event planning after I finish planning my wedding. And a lot of people keep telling me I'd be good at that. And I know I'd enjoy it.
All I know is...
I'm really making it a goal to stop being afraid. To stop being insecure. To acknowledge that it's okay to go into a field and not know EVERYTHING about it.
Thankfully, I have a lot of supportive people surrounding me. They push me into my dreams and make me feel like I can do anything.
I don't know where I'll end up in the future. All I know is that I seek Jesus daily for direction and that He will lead me where I need to be.
No more fear.
I'm gonna LIVE FEARLESSLY.
I'm gonna LIVE FREE.
I challenge you to let your fears and insecurities fall to the ground.
I challenge you to push forward.
Always put your heart into what you're doing.